Hold nothing back

Today was a day for blogging, defnitely. Not that I have all that much to say, nothing super deep, or super important, but just telling you bits and pieces of my life, which is generally what I always do, but for once, I actually feel like blogging. My post-voice lesson adrenaline rush from that high Bb is still going strong, so I'm taking advantage of the time. : )
I used to write my poems/artistic musings in pencil in hopes of being able to edit them later, but whenever I feel a poem/artistic musing come on, it happens in one big rush, like a bucket of water being dumped from my head onto my paper. So I have determined to always write them in pen, that way I can't mess with the original moment which inspired said poem/artistic musing, because every time I try to fix them and make them better, something just doesn't seem right about it, not at all. Some might say its a silly practice to try and get it right the very first time and let the cement harden instantly, but as I don't plan on ever publishing anything I write in my journal, I don't think its too hazardous. : )
Also, many of the things I have written a long time ago, at various times and situations, become relevant and sometimes even more meaningful than when I originally wrote it, and that just makes me glad. God uses even the tiny seemingly silly things to do great wonders, or just cheer someone up. Man is He good. : )
Also, the other day, I had the biggest urge I think I've ever had to paint something. Probably in the impressionistic style since I don't completely trust my abilities to accurately depict much of anything with paint. I think I'll break out the canvases this summer when no one's home and I'm feeling colorful. I can't wait, it's been forever since I actually painted something. I intend to take many an art course in college, finally, with all those high school trivialites like foreign language requirements out of the way, I'll have time for things I love. : D
God has so much planned for these next four years, I can just feel it, and it feels great. I don't know when I have anticipated something thats such a big change so much. And its not the "Oh boy oh boy I can't wait!!" giddy jumping up-and-down sort of thing, but the more patient, yet excited "Oh goodness gracious, I want to see what God is doing!" Geez, its gonna be so good, oh man is it ever. : D

french braided pigtails

french braided pigtails, when you think about the name, it just makes you sick, but nonetheless, it looks cute. anyways, sorry for the horrible intro, but it was what i was thinking at the moment. : ) been very tired and full of lacrosse, too tired to do much blogging, thats for sure. anyways, this is pretty much my last week of actual classes before ap exams start and then its just alllll dowhill. i am super super pumped about that and SO excited about college. lacrosse game tonight, of course, but for once, its not raining, and its not supposed to either. its amazing. anyways, i hav eto go focus on my game or something, i'll write more later, prom on friday!!! lovelove to you all : D

post-birthdayness

ok, so i've been a horribly lazy bum and not updated in forever, but i honestly think only one person reads this thing and he already knows everything that i write in here. but by golly, i'm going to update anyway. my eighteenth birthday was yesterday and it was nice. i had family birthday time and presents on monday and played lots of lacrosse yesterday. it was nice, we had cupcakes and singing on the bus for my birthday, almost got 18 goals. yes we killed them, and i got to play goalie the whole game. hehe yay. school is wrapping up, teachers are going crazy on review and i'm just relaxing, and by relaxing i mean playing lacrosse 24/7. my end of year voice recital is coming up, and i swear i'm gonna cry at the end. i have just this year been realizing how much i absolutely LOVE voice and singing and all that jazz. oh goodness, i hope i can still do that in college, there are a lot of things i hope i get to do in college, but God definitely comes first. thats my main gola in life right now, jsut to put God first in everything i do. but man oh man is it hard. anyways, its for sure bedtime and i'll try to write more later, but i love you all! : )

too delicious to be sacreligious

Just sitting here thinking of all the things i want to say in this entry leaves me totally overwhelmed. its been over two weeks since i last posted and what a full over-two-weeks its been.
spring break started off wonderfully. Amanda invited me over at the spur of a moment and we ended up playing Where in the USA is Carmen San Diego? which brought back awesomely fond childhood memories. we rented breakfast at tiffany's got locked into caribou coffee and finally made it home to watch the movie and cook gourmet things in her easy bake oven. hanging out with her was so aweosme since we hardly see each other at all anymore and next year, we'll be hundreds of miles apart. : (
then spring break continued in a whirl of sleeping in, sharing cars and seeing friends, mostly David. Easter came and went and my sister came home for a nice short visit. hurrah for chinese food on eater sunday, too delicious to be sacreligious. : )
then after purchasing a new car (1998 black jeep grand cherokee, shown below) and getting a beautiful cd player installed. Jessie, Brian, and Jacob piled into my car and we headed for the mountains. the weekend with all the App kids and everyone(especially one in particular) was amazing and definitely will be elaborated upon in a later update.
needless to say, spring break was amazing and all too short, but only about a month of real school left, so everything is ok.
In other news, I'm going to The University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill this fall!!!!!!! yay tarheels! : D anyways, as you can tell, i'm super super excited!!! but thats enough for now, more to come later. Love to you all, especially from God : )

me with my beautiful new jeep