well i declare floyd, i believe you're finally gettin' the hang of it!

i'm finally done applying for college. finally. hehe i'm a very happy camper thats for sure. also, right after christmas i got a letter from carolina which said "we can't officially tell you you're in, but, hey, you're in!" hehe so that made me glad. i had and absolutely amazing christmas. got some neat stuff, especially my digital camera which i'm having great fun with. havent really been doing a whole lot lately. just sleeping really late, seeing friends, gaining the obligatory holiday pounds. but i havent really gained that much, mostly because everyone in my house except for me is on a diet, therefore i'm not getting any normal food. lol. school is approaching far too quickly but i still have a few days of freedom left. went walking around downtown with mark the other night taking pictures, and in sum, it was wayyyy too cold. but of course, now its about 65 degrees here, lol, i love north carolina. tonight david built a fire in the fireplace and we had a lovely lovely evening just enjoying the fire and each other, even if it was 60 degrees outside ; ) i've gotten back into my wonderfully awful habit of reading books until the wee hours of the morning, so i'm off to go do that somemore : ) love to you all and happy new years!!! :D don't worry seniors, its almost 2005 : )

Jesus loves you more

its been forever, i know i know. too much to do and too many things on my mind. to much to subordinate into a tiny little blog update. the human brain is too complex for mere language. i've always wanted to find a way to truly express how i feel, but words just dont quite do the trick. the time i feel most like myself and the best expressed is when i'm worshipping and spending time with my Jesus, and i love that.
just a few thoughts aching to be written out: i dont think anyone knows themselves as well as they think they do. think of how many times you have done something that completely surprised yourself, good or bad, and definitely surprising. i wish i knew it all, and i act like i do a lot of the time, but i don't know anything, about anything, at all.
i had a really long talk last night with the man i love, and i am just so thankful to have someone to stand with me in prayer and hold my hand as we try to seek after God the best way we know how. i'm so thankful.
it doesn't feel like christmas at all yet, and i miss it and i love christmas but i think i've forgotten what it feels like or rather what its supposed to feel like. i dont know what happened, but i want it back. but no worries, hopefully it'll feel like christmas soon enough, and that makes me glad.
i love the way christmas smells, like cinnamon and cookies and love. : D
most of the reasons that i do what i do is because i want people to be happy. at least i think. i mean i don't know, because i don't think any knows themselves very well. but then again maybe i do. i don't mind so much though because whether i know who I am or not I know that God knows exactly who I am and who He created me to be and I am His, His beloved, and thats all i need to know. :) about 20 minutes ago life seemed really really crazy, but its all so unimportant in the scheme of things. God is God and we were made to worship Him with all of our hearts. Its our deepest desire, to serve our King, and i love the peace and comfort that those thoughts bring and i just want to fufill my purpose so badly. I love you my Jesus. and I love all of you, but Jesus loves you more. :)

brevity is key

life is good, school is almost out, and i'm sleepy ; ) just updating quickly, more later :D

When I'm with you I feel safe, like I'm home

chirstmas time is probably my very favorite time of year. the best thing about christmas right now is the yummy christmasy smell of the wreath on my door and how I smell it whenever I open the door. yay. hehe ; ) i've been praying for snow, but so far no luck, 72 degrees makes it hard for snow to fall. oh well it'll be cold soon ; )
I'm counting the seconds until David comes home on Thursday, sigh, long distance is hard, but its so worth it. that line from garden state says it all. "when i'm with you I feel safe, like i'm home." its oh so true. : ) this week is so sloooooow but it'll be over soon. i can't wait until all of my college kids come home. and i get to see a bunch of my other friends who i just never see during school. its really hard having so many friends in college because the college schedule is sooooo much better than 7 hours of class everyday. i am counting the seconds until may 28th. oh goodness, that will be a glorious day : D oh man, this year has been so wonderful, and i cant wait to see how its gonna get even better : ) sorry about the kinda spacey update, oh well ; ) muchoamoramor!

oh yeah, i was on the news today! hehe yay :D