i'm getting married! YAY!
i'm getting married!!! i'm super excited!! hehe YAY! :D!
Name: Lauren ~ Age: 20 ~ Location: North Carolina ~ Occupation: Student ~ Email: lmpetty@email.unc.edu
It seems that my greatest inspiration and need to express my heart comes out of spending time in the incredible, holy presence of God. I was just not feeling good at all. talking it out with some people and praying, I was by myself again and I just began to seek the face of God. To cry out to Him in the midst of what felt like my wilderness, and a song came to my mind and I realized how much of a theme it is in my heart and life right now.
I just got home from yet another absolutely amazing weekend at the Helsers. oh man, God is good, God is AMAZING! I could write about five books on everything that happened and all that God did. Wow, I mean I don't even know where to start. I have so many questions about everything and I found a few answers, thats for sure. I really do have a big heart for writing, and I've been ignoring that a lot lately, or at least I have gotten so busy I haven't had time to let God write through me. There are so many things I want to do, so many places I want to go in the heart of God, and I feel like I have to do it all now. But God is constantly reminding me that I have the rest of eternity to explore His heart. I have got to remember that. It was spoken over me recently that my gifts would begin to come together and His path for me would become clearer and I feel like I might a little bit more of the puzzle put together. I'm just waiting for God to push the accelerator and take me where He wants me. I'm expecting big things to happen in Ecuador though, and I'm definitely praying hard about what to do for my life group next semester. God is really stirring up the waters of my heart, I can feel the simmer growing into a boil, I'm just still not sure whats in the cooking pot. But once it starts to boil over, the lid will come off and the contents will spill out all over the stove. So we'll just keep cooking. All the praise and honor and glory is His. Love!
So, its June. God is still good, life is still amazing, and I am still really slack about updating my blog. All in all, nothing much has changed. I'm done with my first year of college and God just continually piles the blessings on my life. I'm heading to Helsers in June, Ecuador in July, and working all the time in between. God has been teaching me so very much lately about not worrying about the future. He just wants me to seek Him, and He will show me the path He has set before me and show me how He is going to use me and the gifts He has blessed me with. Until then, I'm just trying to continually live for Him. Life is beautiful.
ok, ok. i know. i'm a very slack updater. oh well, life is busy, and when I have time, I'm too tired to post. Here's the scoop: God is absolutely AMAZING! hands down, best Thing EVER! : D! haha yay! He has been doing sooooooooo much in me! I'm on leadership like whoa in Chi Alpha Christian Fellowship here at UNC, worship team, bible study co-leader, general leadership, and on and on the list goes.... lol. It really has been so so so amazing. God is teaching me so many things in so so many facets of my life. I wish I could mention it all, but its just so so much! I'll try to update more though and write them down here. : ) God is good. I can't wait until spring break. I can't believe the semester is so close to being over! yayay! love love love to everyone! : D
so I'm a little sporatic when it comes to my posts on here... its only been 25 days! Anyway, I've been ridiculously busy with all kinds of wonderful new things!! I was invited to be a part of Chi Alpha Leadership!! Yay! So now I'm co-leading a life group (small group bible study) and I am on general leadership and also on the prayer and worship teams! lol, whew thats a lot! but its so so good! My classes are great, I really love how my schedule is set up, it leaves planty of time in the afternoon for my new job as an Office Assistant at Hinton James (my dorm)! I also was asked to have an interview for being an RA, since I'm applying for that next year! All kinds of craziness! Last weekend was one of the most amazing weekends! I went to a young women's retreat at A Place For the Heart and it was unbelievably awesome! God was so there and just really ministered to me and all the girls there! He did some really powerful stuff to kick off this new season. And it was so good to be able to see a lot of my friends who I only see once or twice a year! Its definitely been a struggle since coming off of that retreat to not let Satan's doubled attacks get to me, but I'm doing good so far : ) so life is crazy and wonderful and busy, but God is in everything and guiding me through it all and I am so so so thankful. I don't know how I'd live without Him, He guides my steps in all things and carries me through the hardest times, He is so gracious and loving and I could never stop praising Him!
So this is the new year.
Well, I am finally home for winter break. First semester is over and there's only seven more to go. College has been amazing. I have met more people than I think I ever have in my life in such a short time, and most of them have been absolutely amazing. I feel like I really have grown a lot, or at least learned a lot, during this initial phase of my college career. I am no closer to figuring out a major, and that's okay. I'm constantly growing and changing in God, and thats wonderful. I am more sure of who I am in Him everyday; Caring less and less about what the world thinks of me (though I still have a looong way to go) and focusing more and more on what God thinks of me(though, again, I still have a looong way to go). UNC is hands down the best place for me and I fit so perfectly there. God definitely knows what He is doing. And I am so so so so excited to see exactly what He has for me there in the future. This semester has been amazing. My introduction into college still feels like a dream most days, its just been so great. I know God has even greater things in store for me in the spring, but for now I'm going to relax and enjoy the smells of Christmas trees, the apple cider, the fire in the fireplace, and the wonderful, happy, giving spirit of Christmastime! Love to you all and merry merry Christmas!
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, and a lot of it kind of came together today. I realized there are a lot of things, expectations, hopes, dreams etc, that even though they are Godly and well-meant, I still have been holding onto way too tightly(actually holding on at all), and I have to give everything to God, good and bad. Regardless, there are still a lot of things I'm not sure of right now. Well actually, I am sure that I'm unsure of most things right now. But, I am sure of God, and His love and His power and might. Of His greatness and wonderfulness. Of who He is. I want him to take my world apart so that I rely totally and completely on Him. I cannot express in human words how I am feeling in this moment, but its an amazing feeling. Such an insatiable desire for God. I'm starving and yearning and longing for everything He has for me. My heart is calling out for Him, reaching and grasping for Him, for His heart. I'm overwhelemed by everything He is. He really died for me. Shake my paradigm to pieces Lord. Take my world apart, I want You and only You.
I think I think too much. I think. lol. there are so many thoughts that flow through my mind constantly. like a river. It just keeps flowing, from somewhere far away to somewhere else farther away. and the river is made up of so many different parts, water from all different places, all converging on one place, my head. there are those constant currents that wont ever leave, always there, on my mind, always present. then there is everything else that is fleeting from here to there, and somehow back again. I think God is that unseen force which keeps the river flowing, always flowing, he makes it rises during floods, and replenishes it with rain during the dry seasons. this probably doesnt make sense to anyone but me and God, but ah well, c'est la vie.
Life sure can be amazing and crazy all at the same time. Its funny how that works. I've definitely not been getting enough sleep lately, so I have for sure been less exuberant than normal, but things are looking up in the sleep department. Got a pretty restful weekend looking at me right now, just a football game and some movies tomorrow : D! I'm excited!
wow. life is amazing. absolutely amazing and indescribable. : D i just got back from a spectacular weekend in atlanta. 8 people, 7 seats, 6 hours, 5 thrifty items, 4 amazing bands, 3 glorious days, 2 many people in a van, 1 God. wow. what a weekend. rode down with David, Marshall, Brian, Jacob, John Bingham, Tiphani, and Britty. yayayyay! it was so good to visit Stephen and see people from home and get to know others better!! yay Britty! yay awesome people! anyways, we went to a random highschool football game, had a massive bonfire, did some very successful thrifting in downtown atlanta and to top off the amazing weekend went to see COPELAND! it was one of the best shows i've ever been to for sure, i had so much fun : ) what a great weekend.
This evening, my friend decided to define me:
what a happy happy day!! yay! not only did I get to start off the day with an awesome 714 prayer, I had my one-on-one with the beautiful Jillian! After that I had some great conversation of epiphanies and then guitar playing time! Easy classes, and then I got my first paper back in anthropology today! I was getting worried because almost all of the papers in front of mine weren't above a C-, and then I get mine backand it was an A-!!!! hehehe! I was SO pumped! Thank you Jesus for somehow making my paper good. :)! Then I curled my hair in ringlets because I could, haha, had dinner, then went to practice before the XA night of worship tonight. God was all over it and it was just so awesome, God has been all over today : )
today has been wonderful and full of music. I wish a music major was practical... i miss music, I love music, oh man. its amazing. I'm learning guitar and teaching piano and voice, hooray! hehe life is good, now on to something fun:
Only because David asked me to...
Things I want to do before I die:
Things I can do:
Things I can’t do:
Things that attract me to the opposite sex:
Celebrity Crushes:
People I want to do this next:
well, its tuesday, thats for sure. i'm a tired little girl. stayed up last night until 2:20am writing an anthropology paper, and then got up at 6:30 to go to 714 prayer in the union. man oh man, earrrrly day! but its ok, after that I came back to my room and went back to sleep. that was wondrous. my hair is curly now(i woke up with it straight) and its making me happy!
yay yay yay!! i think that yay is one of my very favorite words in the entire world : D! it so adequately expresses how i feel most of the time. this evening was amazing. we had a worship and prayer night in the union from 5:30-9:30 and then all of xa went up to franklin street pizza and pasta and had wonderful food and fun! i got to know even more amazing, Godly people and had some awesome prayer and worship. God is always working on me and I'm so glad. I want to be clay in His hands. i never want to be complete, not until I meet Him face to face. oh maan i am just so so happy : )!
here is my heart right now: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=unc_chialpha the wednesday, sept 21 is my post, please read it! : )
Wow, what a week its been. : ) haha I start almost every journal entry with "wow" too. It really does sum up my life. one big wow. hehehe! : D! I auditioned for a co-ed christian a capella group and had call backs today and it went sooo well! I find out if I made it in the morning!! Tonight's XA class about being "missions minded" was awesome! It wasn't the typical "you ought to be ashamed if you are converting people right and left and preaching everywhere" but it was an awesome time of diving into the scripture and really uncovering the promises God has made and our purpose here on earth and the amazing ways he has provided for us to fufill His plan for us! I love you Jesus!!! : D He's been teaching me SO much lately on really laying everything at His feet and totally just submitting it to Him and what He has planned for me. Because God knows WAAAAY better than I do about what's best for me, and the plan He has for my life is SO much greater than anything I could create of my own strength or mind! God is so amazing!! Anyways, I just hope I go to sleep tonight, I can't wait to see if I got in to Psalm 100! love to everyone and have a blessed weekend!
and finally, an update (sorry its been so long!)
I can't believe the end is almost here. every class now is full of watching movies, end of year fiestas, and yearbook signing. i can't quite believe its all over, its been forever, and so short, but i'm so glad to be almost done. graduation is next saturday : ) thats going to be an amazing day :) i have a job now! so i no longer feel like a bum as i'm making money and selling shoes at the birkenstock store at friendly : D yayayay! Thank God for my wonderful job! i had the most wonderful belated birthday ever, not only did i get gorgeous earrings AND a ring from my darling, but we all went to see Jason Upton and then the next day had a swing daning extravaganza in winston. : ) what a wonderful weekend that was!!! : D thank you David, for everything, you made it the most wonderful birthday ever : ) my final voice recital is next tuesday, and i swear i'm going to cry, I cant wait to get involved in the theater at unc, : D. in other news, i'm leading worship on sunday!!! i am So nervous, but excited too, and God will help calm my nerves. i'm colecting ll my painting supplies for the summer so i can enjoy the sunshine and make some art, no idea how they'll turn out, but i'm hoping for the best : ) getting SO excited about shopping for dorm things and finding out who my roommate is!!! hehehe, college is gonna be amazing! i love you all and have a wonderful may!! : D
Today was a day for blogging, defnitely. Not that I have all that much to say, nothing super deep, or super important, but just telling you bits and pieces of my life, which is generally what I always do, but for once, I actually feel like blogging. My post-voice lesson adrenaline rush from that high Bb is still going strong, so I'm taking advantage of the time. : )
french braided pigtails, when you think about the name, it just makes you sick, but nonetheless, it looks cute. anyways, sorry for the horrible intro, but it was what i was thinking at the moment. : ) been very tired and full of lacrosse, too tired to do much blogging, thats for sure. anyways, this is pretty much my last week of actual classes before ap exams start and then its just alllll dowhill. i am super super pumped about that and SO excited about college. lacrosse game tonight, of course, but for once, its not raining, and its not supposed to either. its amazing. anyways, i hav eto go focus on my game or something, i'll write more later, prom on friday!!! lovelove to you all : D
ok, so i've been a horribly lazy bum and not updated in forever, but i honestly think only one person reads this thing and he already knows everything that i write in here. but by golly, i'm going to update anyway. my eighteenth birthday was yesterday and it was nice. i had family birthday time and presents on monday and played lots of lacrosse yesterday. it was nice, we had cupcakes and singing on the bus for my birthday, almost got 18 goals. yes we killed them, and i got to play goalie the whole game. hehe yay. school is wrapping up, teachers are going crazy on review and i'm just relaxing, and by relaxing i mean playing lacrosse 24/7. my end of year voice recital is coming up, and i swear i'm gonna cry at the end. i have just this year been realizing how much i absolutely LOVE voice and singing and all that jazz. oh goodness, i hope i can still do that in college, there are a lot of things i hope i get to do in college, but God definitely comes first. thats my main gola in life right now, jsut to put God first in everything i do. but man oh man is it hard. anyways, its for sure bedtime and i'll try to write more later, but i love you all! : )
Just sitting here thinking of all the things i want to say in this entry leaves me totally overwhelmed. its been over two weeks since i last posted and what a full over-two-weeks its been.
everytime i seem to find some time to write in my blog, i feel too tired and inspired to be interesting at all. But, hey, I should get some points for actually trying for once. Still recuperating from Houston and no sleep. But its only a wretched four days of school until spring break so gloriously rolls around the corner : D i am so so so so so so pumped. trying to finish up projects for most classes but i can seem to find much motivation. *sigh* only a few more weeks lauren, it'll be over soon. oh i hope hope hope : D
ok so i'm not that much of a slacker, i've just been in texas! i went with my sister's a cappella group from duke and had a great great time! hehe and then today was a snowday!!!!!! hehehe SOOOOOOOOO awesome : D hehehe i love north carolina : ) anyways, just a short update, going to chill out and enjoy my snow day : ) i'm on the car hunt now too : D i love you all : D
Deep thought for the day:
*sigh* life is... full of up and downs. this is definitely a down : ( so yesterday this girl rear ended me at school and pushed me into the car in front of me. but the girl's stupid dad is a jerk and is trying to get out of it, getting an investigator to come and check out everything. SOOO unnecessary, i mean, how on earth do you get out of REAR ENDING someone?? it was totally her fault *sigh* i just want to cry because this is just so frustrating and unecessary and making me so mad :*( why can't people just own up to what they did? its their fault and thats that. i'm so angry, people just make me so so mad sometimes. i'm gonna curl up with some hot chocolate and a blanket and cry :*( on a happier note, i love you all, and Jesus is wonderful :)
7:05 got up and got ready